Bipolar Skizoaffective Rant

Im Bipolar Skizoaffective and suffer from panic attacks, night terrors too ! I was diagnosed when I was 17, I got a hold of some bad pot, I pretty sure it had PCP in it . Life is hard, but when people ask me if I want to die or commit suicide, I say it crosses my mind all the time, but I want to live, just a peacful life not one that is complicated . Life is what you make it, just some of us are conflicted with different things, physically and mentally!